The ticker tapes have run out, swallowing ones and zeroes, while from a perfect and pink aporia dangles the hell’s end of a cigarette that hisses goodbye, goodbye dear, goodbye to all that in an ink blot. I’m crossing old circuits. Secret and serendipitous, but to the naked eye, merely a site to hack a beery slash in the navv hours… Supposed utopia forsaken, the flip side of a fast one—a fist, or life. The graffiti curates obscenity in water closets. The toes tap epistles in a whore’s code. The living history of silence is counted in the vibratory instants between chapel bells. I’m held under suspension bridges, holding breaths portentous as gothic fog. I’m standing aside-eyed at love, hovering around the urinals, attuned to the signals: those fleeting gazes gone to the eye-white narcissi of the neon— And in a flash, I see men safe in the palm of my hand, and all our causeways come undone. And in the bar, we text our muscled apparitions while our want is numbered: one more for the night, and then we swallow the zero hour.
Kevin Shaw